Monday, May 30, 2005

1st day...

Made Me Glad
by Hillsongs
I will bless the Lord forever
And I will trust Him at all times
He has delivered me from all fear
And he has set my feet upon a rock

And I will not be moved
And I'll say of the Lord....

You are my shield
My strength
My portion
Deliverer
My shelter
Strong tower
My very present help in time of need

Whom have I in Heaven but you?
There's none I desire beside you
You have made me glad
And I'll say of the Lord....

You are my shield
My strength
My portion
Deliverer
My shelter
Strong tower
My very present help in time of need
My very present help in time of need...


Today was a terribly long day... From 9-6.... non stop lessons with only an hour in-between to take a breath...
Overdrive... I think my limit my break....

sigh... its not a very good day for me too....


I think... I'm becoming more of a class irritance then anything else...
I try to make the class more lively by talking and asking questions?..... but... i think.. its not really helping..
maybe the class is still in the holiday mood and trying hard to adapt quickly to school life...

I just feel that many people are particularly cold to me today.... sobz...


I hope I'm just feeling overly sensitive....


My jokes are getting quite cold as well... Even my groupy seems more distant then ever before...

God help me.... is this retribution I'm getting?...... I don't even know what I'm doing wrong...
what I have done wrong...


am I too arrogant?
am I too talkative?
am I too stupid?
am I too irritating?
am I too rash?
am I too pessimistic?
am I too.. what?

I feel like have nobody close in school to talk to now..... nobody to confide to.. nor anybody to laugh and cry along with me....
what is wrong with me....

sad...

Sunday, May 29, 2005

The Day Before Sem 2 - Written by Andrew

Less then 24 hours before the school starts again =D
Wee!!~~ So excited! yeah...

Hmm... haha... Since May did a very interesting entry about what she predicts the modules will be like, I'll try and figure out my own expectations for the modules also... xP

Consumer Behavier :
It sounds alot like Communication Principles and Marketing all jumbled into one mumbo module... but... as long as it does not require a hyper lot of memory work... (at which, marketing and ICP is famous for)... I'll be fine with it I guess...

Legal System and Contracts :
Yah.. I agree with May... this sounds like TOTALLY boring... I'll sleep in class... ("I'll" is a short form for I WILL - Websters English Dictionary)... but maybe a premonition that I might actually score a distinction in such a universally boring module may snap me up...

Mass Media Research :
Sounds threatening.... like... Mess Media Research as in... I'll mess up your brain when you do your tons of unceasing media research.. haha... Hmm.... maybe I'll squeeze out some help from Chern Chern...

Digital Media Application :
Nice... I MEAN NICE! I got a feeling I may well like this the best... Filming, shooting... Editing and creating matrix stuff.... I jus gotta make sure I attend all the lessons at least... I hate it when I miss ONE important lesson....

Organizational Management :
... yippee..... I'm so thrilled.... (can you tell the difference between real excitement and sacarsm?) there is actually a module in Media and Communication on how to be a secretary...
Well.. I'm going to sit on my boss's lap and offer her (or him?) chocolate and coffee...
Eh.. dont laugh ok... what type of age is this already...

General Elective Module - Nutrition and Wellness :
AHHHH!!! hahah.. for those who know me well... I'm DEFINATELY going to enjoy this course... Hmm.. I guess they are going to put me off-color for my lunches.. but eitherwise, it will still be among my favourite modules...

so that concludes my summary of the subjects that I will be taking...
I still haven't listed out my Spec. Dip modules yet.... but I'm clueless on what I'm doing.. so i'll just sit back and wait out....

sigh... new term, new lessons, new stress....
I dunno if I can adapt to new groups? There is talk that we might actually be switching groups this year...
It scares me.. but I can bravely say that I'm not as frightened now, as compared to last semester when they were discussing the same issue...

I miss my groupy... I miss... Timothy, Jason, Sonia and Sarah =D
heez..

yah... truly I do...



The upcoming CCA week will be a hectic wan for me too... On top of the involvement in the Campus Crusade Booth, I am suppose to be the synthesist for a concert in FC4 also...
I wonder.. does this bode well for my cramp schedule?


Busy busy busy.. busy as a bee........

. not yet .

in about 12 hours time =)

Friday, May 27, 2005

dreams and boredom

Sorry for the pretty vulgur post I did in the morning...
sigh... I just miss Final Fantasy... it brings me back to my playful days...

3 years... 3 years ago.... or maybe longer... I can't remember... I played FFX... I was quite crazy about that game at that time.. spending hundreds of hours jus playing the international version and unlocking all its secrets....

So the PS2 is gone... Knowing my father, he would never give it back again... he would rather buy a new one then crack his oversized ego to return the old one...

time has changed me so much.... and yet.. so little...

my love for fantasy.. magic... never faded, one bit since young...

As I said before, I live in my dreams....... Sometimes... if not for Jesus and God, I would be utterly lost finding which reality I belong to....
The craftable reality? or the mundane reality....

My dreams alllow me to transcend "reality"... Flying without wings above the world that I created myself...

Lucid dreaming?.... I dunno about that... but I thank God that I can live my fantasy in my dreams....

Its always daytime in my dreams.. I noticed... lolz..... actually i noticed that long long time ago.... hmmm.. i wonder..

I'm bored stiff... can you tell?

I'm stuck at home the whole day playing Warcraft until I'm DAMM sick of it... then switching to KoF... then switching to LotR... I'm sick of the same old computer games.. I desperately need something new to play...

blahz....

who wanna go out with me?... I've got like 4 more days of holiday left...

PS 2 Eliminated. Fuck

I'm too tired to be angry or anything now...

Arrgh.. the PS 2 has been taken away... Dammit..... another chance to play Final Fanasy slips from my fingers....

I hate my brother sometimes... He doesnt live up to my parents expectation and he gets beraided. I suffer.
What the hell...

I just woke up like 5 mins ago... and I saw that the PS 2 was gone... I'm feeling damm furious inside... but I'm jus too tired to do anything...

Fuck.

Just take away my entertainment lah. KNNBCCB.

stupid people... i cant even get a well deserved holiday.

fuck.

yes. the work is fuck. dammit. knnbccb. whatever.

Thursday, May 26, 2005

To a friend =)

Remember Me This Way
by Jordan Hill

Every now and then
We find a special friend
who never lets us down...

Who understands it all
reaches out each time we fall
you're the best friend i have found...

I know you can't stay
a part of you will never ever go away
your heart will stay.....

I'll make a wish for you,
and hope it will come true,
if life will just be kind,
to such a gentle mind,
if you lose your way,
think back on yesturday
remember me this way,
remember me this way.

I don't need eyes to see
the love you bring to me,
no matter where I go
and I know that you'll be there
forever-more a part of me and everywhere
I'll always care.....

I'll make a wish for you
and hope it will come true,
if life will just be kind,
to such a gentle mind,
and if you lose your way
think back on yesturday
remember me this way,
remember me this way.

and I'll be right behind your shoulder,watching you
I'll be standing by your side, all you do
and I won't ever leave
as long as you believe,
you just believe....

I'll make a wish for you
and hope it will come true
if life will just be kind
to such a gentle mind
and if you lose your way
think back on yesturday
remember me this way
remember me this way.
oh.....
this way.
For a friend... That I still keep close in my heart...
I'll always be there, but... remember me, for the best that I was, and I may be...
You know who you are =)
Distinction Kiddo

Sunday, May 22, 2005

= Mission Complete! =

I HAVE RETURNED!!

MISSION SUCCESS - Beyond what we even expected!

The mission to Charis Student Service Centre was far better then our team ever thought, and by God's grace, a total of FORTY NINE (yes, 49 for the analogritates)

Three Cheers for re-entries into the Kingdom!!

sigh... i really miss the kids...

The mission trip has been really a life-changing experience for me.... I mean it. Completely....
Dependence on God, self-sacrifice, working as a team, perserverences and determination...

If there is any "training camp" that you should go to, its a mission trip!

It trains you to be spiritually dependent on God, and it trains you to be mentally quick and decerning, and it trains you to be physically stronger, with greater determination then ever before...

I was called nua-er during the mission trip... (stop laughing)
That was coz I was always so sleepy.... Hmm.. Come to think of it.. I wonder why on earth was I so sleepy during the trip...
See? The mission trips drains your energy too... zZzz

My 2 favourite kids are Wen Xuan (altogether now... WEN XUAN!!!!) haha.... and the ever handsome and cute kid Wei Chong ( or is it Wei Zhong... dunno le... I have a thing with chinese names)

The last day was such a painful day... The whole team and I (of course!) couldn't bare to leave the children.... We were singing a song "Friends" for them, then a few girls started crying, then the so many others started crying too... Boys and girls as well...
It was hard not to shed a tear too... I miss them so much still..

There was a little boy in the second row... And he was telling the others around him not to cry...
something like...
sniff.. sniff... don't cry lah... jie jie and kor kor will come back wan... sniff sniff....
and in a few minutes, he bursted out crying too...

The little kid, Wei Chong loved to poke me and run away to hide... but during the last minutes, he poke me.. then he was about to run... but turned back and hug me and said... Kor kor don't go can.. please.. I almost cried... but all I did was hug him really tight....

But the time my heart was most pain when I sent Wen Xuan of to school on the last day...
Before he entered the school gates... He suddenly hugged my leg and said "Andrew kor kor... I love you... I'll see you tomorrow ok? Don't go ah.. Wait for me... I'll want to see you everyday..."
I couldnt bare to tell him I would not be coming back anymore...

... Anymore...

God did many wondrous and extraordinary things during the mission... Like... Healing a boy named Yi Yang from fever which he had for almost 2 days, almost instantly....
and the weather to be good whenever we had games to organize...

I'll miss the kids, I'll miss the team, and I'll miss the mission...

I love children... Just looking and realating to them brings me back to my childhood...
The innocence and the playfulness of everything....
They look at the world through untainted windows... Their curiosity being so lovable...

I still remember... there was a pair of twins... Identical twins... and it was almost impossible to tell them apart, except that one had a small scar on his forehead, and the other lost a tooth...
At the second last day, they told us that they would wear exectly the same clothes on the next day, and they did!
They were jus so adorable...

I love them...

My team mates were really cool too!!

My bunk mate was Joshua... WOO!! He's a GOOD leader!! =D hahah.... but he suffers from lack of self-confidence... lolz... But both of us are crappy... learn crap from each other eh.. LOL.. To top that, he's smart and hardworking too!

There was Tabitha! TABBY! she's kinda cute... lolz.... I think.. coz she can liven everybody's mood up even when peepz are feeling down... She's also very direct and practical... heez.. Thanks for being such a great person!

There was Michelle!!! MICH!! Lolz... Being in the same church, I NEVER EVER knew that she was SOOO FUNNY!!! hahaa... she is the cheer of the entire team! Haha... she makes up to most funny jokes and together with Tabby ( and her soft toys) she can crack you up till you cry! haha!

There was ESTHER!!!! She's a great team I/C ! =D She can be really serious at times, but she is also very smiley and practical as well! Really admire her for her wisdom in situations and sensitivity for the team mates =D

There was JESSICA!!! Woah.. she's SERIOUS!! but she is also very close in her walk with God... But the good part about being perpetually deep in thought is that when you smile, it really comes from the deepest part of your heart.... Take care though... =D

There was JOYCE!!! She's the brains and muscle of da team! According to Joshua, Joyce literally did 90% of the entire work and preperation for da trip!! Woah!! She's very frank and kinda moody at times... But altogether, we would NEVER have made it so far without her! She is da GER!

There was WEN LIN!!! My MORTAL!! lolz... She is a VERY VERY deep thinker.. to the point of talking to herself sometimes... Then everybody would strain their ears to hear her "voiced-out-thoughts".... She is a final fantasy fan too! So extra 10 points for her!! haha!!

There was CAROL!! Soo quiet.... lolz... I didnt really find out much about her even after living under the same roof for 2 weeks... All i know is that she can be a bit blur at times.. haha! But she is also a very careful accountant, weighing all cost carefully... lolz!

hmm.. have I left out anybirdie?????
ME!! ah well.. who wants to talk about Andrew...

hor rite Wen Xuan... =D

I miss Wen Xuan and Wei Chong alot.... I created a house for them in my dream-world for them too.. but the memories will soon fade... and I will not be able to recraft them out so accurately in my dreams in time...

Sometimes I jus stare blankly into space and wonder how they are doing....



sobz.. miss them....
sigh...



God is de best =)
I'm sure our paths will cross one day... Thank God for these kids.... I learnt countless lessons during this trip... too much to write down... but I'll have another blog entry for the mission pictures so stay tuned folks!


1 lesson learnt :
Attitude - The difference between a stepping stone and a stumbling block is how you use them

Sunday, May 15, 2005

Mid-Mission Entry

Long time since I blogged, very very long time...

Now is the break in-between the mission trip, so I was given 36 hours of free and easy... Going to go back to the Third Place very soon =D

Below are but a few of the hundreds of photos that I took the past week as the photographer...

The mission trip is very successful, thanks to all the people who prayed for us and the Charis Mission Staff for being so very cooperative!

haha... if you see the first photo, there is my favourite kid in that photo... Wen Xuan! He is the small boy who is smiling at the camera at the middle of the picture... hehez...
He's unbelievably cute and adorable.. haha

I'm really very shacked out... all energy has been drained from my body during this trip... My throat is sore and my legs hurt.... haha.. but doing this for God makes it all worthwhile...

Thank you God for making this such a wonderful mission...

Saturday, May 14, 2005


That is Esther! my team leader (not the boy lah) the pretty teacher at the back =D Posted by Hello

Fee Fee (alien) fish! ^_^ Posted by Hello

This is the place where we stayed!! Cool huh! Posted by Hello

This is a photo from my mission trip so far =D Posted by Hello

Sunday, May 08, 2005

To the mission.....
From today onwards, I'll be commissioned under Christ and Campus Crusade to go forth for to spread the Good News to the children of Charis Student Service Centre...

I'll be offline I guess for a period of about 2 weeks, so I hope that you all who read this will keep me in prayer =D


Thanks for everything,
Thanks for your support =)






God Bless
To the Missions!

Friday, May 06, 2005

The Happiest BIrthday Eva

ok.. now... forget about the last post... its time for a happy happy entry! =D

Weee~~!! I wanna thank so many people for making this my happiest birthday ever..
List list!!!

- Victor!
Thanks for organizing this fantastic party for me! Thanks sooo much... can cry you know... Didnt do this for ya 18th birthday... Dont worry.. I'll make an even BIGGER wan for you 21st birthday... =D

- Simon + Haryanto + (me!) [a.k.a. A.S.H.] + Madelyn
A.S.H. Rulz!!! lolz.. you guyz rock... thanks for coming and staying with me throughout the chalet... You peepz really brightened up my day! Haha... when Haryanto said that he would not be coming, I nearly cried... But dunno why I so stoopid.. haha.. kanna tricked by him again! xP

- EMU KOR KOR + Richard
Bleahz... haha... both of you are really cutee together... "Love-Nest!!!" lolz... but thanks for the really nice gift that you bought me... haha!! Its sooo practical for me..... heez...
Kor kor knows me best =D

- CALVIN KOR KOR + Ralf
Korrrr... xP Thanks for the watch.. its so nice... Sigh... muz aft coz u a bomb.... *hugz hugz* I'll buy you a BIG BIG prezzy on your birthday!

- DMC 1B-02
AHHH!!!!! HAHAHAA... I DIDNT THINK YOU ALL WOULD ACTUALLY COME!!! thanks sooo much for coming... I was kinda depressed coz I might not be able to show of my fantastic class to my friends...
Thanks for the Billabong wallet! another bomb on behalf of the class... haha

- Eric + Mel
HAMSTERS!!! HAMSTERS!!!! AHHH!H!!I LOVE THE HAMSTERS!!! thanks for giving me such a cuuuteee birthday present! lolz... Love ya guyz...

- Jason + Illango + David (aka. Da Nobodies) + Thomas
Heez... thanks for comign dispite being busy all the time.... Know you peepz are pretty busy.... Really appreciated that you could come to have fun at my party... Relax ya know!! haha... The cake was scrumpylytious!

- Jennifer + Brenda
Thanks for coming on the first day! Though you could not stay for the second, you all still gave me alot of laughter and fun =D

- Eugene
Bleahz... Your body looks good lah... Dont ask people to comment so much le.. or people will think you're bhb ok.. haha.. Thanks for coming and crapping around my chalet.. hahaaha....
Think you're quite cute though.. **sigh...

- To all those who wanted to come but couldn't come at the last minute
Heez... Still gotta thanks ya for giving me "false hopes" so much so that I would go ahead to start the chalet... still thanks ya all for all the nice messsages! =D

- Nicholas + Aaron
OOOeeei.. Come my chalet to disturb people isit... ahahah!! thanks for the nice choker anywyaz... hope ya all do well in your exams

Last but not least
- MUM AND DAD!!
THanks for organizing such a spectacular birthday celebrationg that I could ever think of... Not even in my wildest dreams did I think that anybody would bother celebrating my birthday... much less so many people..
Love ya guyz...



Wee!~! List of prezzyyss

SKII Facial Mask - Eveleen Kor + Richard

Billabong Wallet - DMC 1B/02

Naruto Watch - Calvin Kor

Converse Sneakers - (A).S.H + Madelyn

Big Birthday Cake - Thomas + Da Nobodies

$350 Mission Funds - Mum + Dad

Cross Choker - Nicholas + Aaron

Lo'ReaL $50 Gift Voucher - Zombie Jie jie

MAC brushes and Gift set - MAC Corp Distribution Singapore (xlLanger)

Kyo Figurine and Belt - Chocoba kor kor

HAMSTERS!!!! - Eric + Mel

Fridae.com executive perks subscription? - Dunno who lah...

Gigantic Kyo Poster (again) - Samuel n company xD

NewUrbanMale $88 gift voucher - PLU ( you know who =D)

DBS Gift Vouchers - haha... wah lau... I didnt expect this totally... Thanks (you know who!) =D




aaah!! So many presents!! This year there is a particularly big influx of these joy-bringing stuff!! haha..
I love you guys!!

Thanks for making this birthday the happiest birthday in my entire 18 years of my life...


18 years old.
18 years older.
closer to death by 18 years... haha
how pessimistic can I get...



had fun at the class chalet too! but that is for another time.... =)


Thursday, May 05, 2005

see red?

I haven't seen so many Cs for a long time... *dazed*
(note: Its dazed. Not dazzled.)

I DID NOT GET MY DISTINCTION FOR WP.

I tried hard....... Ms Kwa.. you know I tried hard....... sobz

A WEB PUBLISHING
A INNOVATION DESIGN & ENTERPRISE IN ACTION
B NEWS WRITING
B ISSUES AND VIEW POINTS
C+ DIGITAL VIDEO PRODUCTION AND APPLICATIONS
C+ INTRODUCTION TO PUBLIC RELATIONS & ADVERTISING
C+ PERSONAL FINANCIAL PLANNING


My -
Semester GPA:
3.077
Cumulative GPA:
3.098


See RED?

I got nothing to say.... I'm feeling pretty irritated now... I still cant believe I did not get a distinction for WP nor did I even touch a B for Financial Planning... And I didnt get the much anticipated Distinction for IDEAS...

I shall not brand myself. But I failed myself... definately...
second time this year...

I'm not sad, nor am I happy. I'm definately not depressed.
I'm just feeling particularly Andrew-y now...


I've lost my faith. again
In everything, in God, in myself, in people...

After putting in so much effort to do my work... and even trusting my results to Him,
I get this kinda shit. SHIT!!! Shit you know.. shit happens.

WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU TELLING ME GOD????? WHAT WRONG DID I DO THIS TIME?
WHY SOMETIMES YOU MAKE ME HAPPY? WHY DURING THE OTHERS YOU MAKE ME SO FUCKING DISAPPOINTED?????

This is the law of the world . Hear ye :

1) No matter what you do, there will be people who hardly put in effort, and effortlessly obtain good results.

2) No matter what you do, results. Yes, the world doesnt give a SHIT about effort. Everything is the results. How you obtain it, morally, ethically or effortlessly, does not matter

3) No matter what you do, be satisfied because of the two types of people above.

4) God's plan is divine. But whether it is for the good of His children is.... debatable.

5) Hack care about life, and life will hack care about you.

6) Dont lose your friends.









Anywayz... phase out of this pathatic catagary... I haven't seen a depressing thing for days now...
I'm going to blog about much happier things that happened in the past few days in the next post...
Stay tuned peepz...

Andrew - out

(p.s. I actually typed "Andrew - failed" first.. but I realized that I didnt fail.. so I can't put myself as "FAIL" so ... its out... as in "Imma Out Of My Mind" out...)

Sunday, May 01, 2005

Last entry for a long long time!!

I'm blogging my last entry before my very very long time away from my home...

Lolz..

1-3 May - Birthday Chalet!
3-5 May - May's Birthday Chalet!
6 May - Group Outing
7 May - Day before the start of the mission
8-21 May - Charis Studend Centre GEN12II Mission!

Blogging this jus before I leave my house for the chalet... haha.. i think I'm going to be late already...

once again, if you wanna come to Sentosa and have fun, drop me a line and I'll pick ya up at Siloso beach anytime! =D

That is if my phone doesnt screw up again.. =X its has been giving me problems for awhile...

Hahaa.. gotta thank the peepz who gave me early birthday presents...

1) EMU!! Godsista.... Haha.. Thanks for the SKII mask! =D Really know me well... haha
2) Eric n Melissa... xD Thanks for the M&M's jug...
3) And cPazO YL!! Though you couldn gimme anythign (yet!) hahaa.. thanks for messaging me like half a million times to with me happy birthday.. hahaa xP


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MELISSA!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHARINA TOO!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOHNATHAN!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MAY!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALVIN!!


THanks for all those peeps who will be coming for my chalet!! Really luv ya all.. =D
Juz turning up would have brightened up my day already!